后悔, 有用吗?
也能一点意义也没有。
自责,但真的吗?
真的完全是我的问题吗?
回想起来。
那么那么多的事情,
大大小小的事。
真的有蛛丝马迹
是我太笨
还是太乐观
还是太自大
我以为再多一下下
Thursday, May 12, 2016
Thursday, December 24, 2015
Something just wont work out.
When u forced thing that are suppose to be separated in the first place to come together again, eventually it will still fall off.
It took times and efforts but the resukt will not reciprocate.
Today is Christmas day.
It shall be one, of maybe the worst i have ever spend.
Its a life lesson, with huge consequences and impacted my most loved one.
But whats the point of holding on to something which you knew will just fall off if not this year, maybe next year.
2015.
I am going to end it in a horrible way and 2016 might not be better since I will have to deal with all the after effect.
Whew, i really feel so much better opening up and talking about it.
Im guilty, partly embarrassed with the outcome. However, i know i am brave enough to face this and get a hang from it.
It has been a hard day and night.
Merry christmas to myself.
I hope you learnt, grow and be brave for whatever is coming.
Xoxo
When u forced thing that are suppose to be separated in the first place to come together again, eventually it will still fall off.
It took times and efforts but the resukt will not reciprocate.
Today is Christmas day.
It shall be one, of maybe the worst i have ever spend.
Its a life lesson, with huge consequences and impacted my most loved one.
But whats the point of holding on to something which you knew will just fall off if not this year, maybe next year.
2015.
I am going to end it in a horrible way and 2016 might not be better since I will have to deal with all the after effect.
Whew, i really feel so much better opening up and talking about it.
Im guilty, partly embarrassed with the outcome. However, i know i am brave enough to face this and get a hang from it.
It has been a hard day and night.
Merry christmas to myself.
I hope you learnt, grow and be brave for whatever is coming.
Xoxo
Tuesday, April 7, 2015
Monday, April 6, 2015
It's April already!! >.<
Cant believe how time flies while we are leading a mundane life.
When will you feel that 'you are an adult'? Because i have not reach that stage yet, haha.
Anyway, my friends love to ask when am i going to further my studies lol.
Cos i think most of them know why i didnt and I am really grateful for the concern.
After much consideration, I have to go for the harder way, UNISIM.
It's more difficult because it a 3 years programme. Yes, wtf it's 3 years.
Even if i shun shun finish and cleared all, i will be already 29. WTF 29 =.=
But if i remains like this, i am not sure will I want to further my studies anymore due to my rusted brain lol.
Was looking at the curriculum and I have to admit that I am scared by the modules I have to faced -.-
I am also not sure whether I am able to handle school, work and life.
Oh wells~~
Cant believe how time flies while we are leading a mundane life.
When will you feel that 'you are an adult'? Because i have not reach that stage yet, haha.
Anyway, my friends love to ask when am i going to further my studies lol.
Cos i think most of them know why i didnt and I am really grateful for the concern.
After much consideration, I have to go for the harder way, UNISIM.
It's more difficult because it a 3 years programme. Yes, wtf it's 3 years.
Even if i shun shun finish and cleared all, i will be already 29. WTF 29 =.=
But if i remains like this, i am not sure will I want to further my studies anymore due to my rusted brain lol.
Was looking at the curriculum and I have to admit that I am scared by the modules I have to faced -.-
I am also not sure whether I am able to handle school, work and life.
Oh wells~~
Tuesday, March 3, 2015
3rd wedding anniversary
WOOHOO~ Can you believe time passes so fast that Pig and I are celebrating our 3rd year wedding anniversary today?
He just came back from Macau for his business trip and according to him, he spent alot of effort trying to look for my present.
& in the end, he bought something at the airport...
Tiffany & co bracelet!!
But so sad my wrist is too fat to wear :( but of cos can be extend la.
I am not very into jewellry and accessory and high end brand. But indeed i am very happy to receive present especially after his overseas trip.
I think it's very important for a partner to buy present for another when he went overseas alone~ Cos it means that he was thinking of you even though he's not with you! & i value that alot la hahas. Buy me a stupid handphone cover i also okay deee~
Anyway, we are 2 years in relationship and 3 years in marriage. yeah~ 2 years nia~~ HAHAHA
That's why we spend much more time adapting to each other right after marriage, we quarrel and reconcile, quarrel and reconcile almost every night.
We sit down and talk alot, but often turned out to spark further argument.
We move from students, to young adult and to become parent, all within 5 years LOL. Hence we within more changes than other couples, we changed jobs together and see our pay goes up in the marginal amount bit by bit. We see each other turning more mature and better ability to handle difficulties.
We faced financial, relationship, family issues together.
It's only 3 years la~ but somehow I want myself to remember how hard it is to maintain marriage after seeing so many cases around me whereby husband has another girlfriend and when the wife found out, he do nothing and is not remorseful at all. Hence I am still blessed and thankful that till now, even though we turn out to be more dull in life, he still bother to provide me everything he can and the best within his ability. I am thankful.
I hope on this very day in 2025, I am still able to feel thankful and blessed.
Till then~
He just came back from Macau for his business trip and according to him, he spent alot of effort trying to look for my present.
& in the end, he bought something at the airport...
Tiffany & co bracelet!!
But so sad my wrist is too fat to wear :( but of cos can be extend la.
I am not very into jewellry and accessory and high end brand. But indeed i am very happy to receive present especially after his overseas trip.
I think it's very important for a partner to buy present for another when he went overseas alone~ Cos it means that he was thinking of you even though he's not with you! & i value that alot la hahas. Buy me a stupid handphone cover i also okay deee~
Anyway, we are 2 years in relationship and 3 years in marriage. yeah~ 2 years nia~~ HAHAHA
That's why we spend much more time adapting to each other right after marriage, we quarrel and reconcile, quarrel and reconcile almost every night.
We sit down and talk alot, but often turned out to spark further argument.
We move from students, to young adult and to become parent, all within 5 years LOL. Hence we within more changes than other couples, we changed jobs together and see our pay goes up in the marginal amount bit by bit. We see each other turning more mature and better ability to handle difficulties.
We faced financial, relationship, family issues together.
It's only 3 years la~ but somehow I want myself to remember how hard it is to maintain marriage after seeing so many cases around me whereby husband has another girlfriend and when the wife found out, he do nothing and is not remorseful at all. Hence I am still blessed and thankful that till now, even though we turn out to be more dull in life, he still bother to provide me everything he can and the best within his ability. I am thankful.
I hope on this very day in 2025, I am still able to feel thankful and blessed.
Till then~
Tuesday, December 30, 2014
31 DECEMBER 2014
2014 is coming to an end!!!
Cant.Believe.ITTTTTT
Anyway~ I hope 2014 was a good year.. but to my context~ I dont think so..
It has been quite a rough year for me :(
Especially pertaining my work and financially wise (I believe it's interconnected)
I can hardly remember what are the few greatest event in 2014.. as if 2014 was just a dream and made no impact to my life hahas.
SOOOOOOOOOOO~ in 2015 I hope to make a difference!
I have make my 1st step and have to wait for news lah~ I REALLY REALLY REALLY hope to be given that opportunity to make a change to my current life. & yup! It's that major =P
I am ending my 2014 vomitting and laosai-ing and MC-ed for 2 days! So i guess all the bad luck leftover in me got used up already :D
2015 is such a big deal to me that I cant wait for 2014 to end
Ayden is starting school, and I cant wait to see his changes :)
We are a year nearer to collection of keys and i SERIOUSLY cant wait for it to happen. We have been waiting for the day where we can sit around in the living room, watching television, cook and not squeeze inside one room with everything :(
Pig has been more stabilize in his new job and I cant wait to see him doing better and of cos (higher pay lah)
Cant.Believe.ITTTTTT
Anyway~ I hope 2014 was a good year.. but to my context~ I dont think so..
It has been quite a rough year for me :(
Especially pertaining my work and financially wise (I believe it's interconnected)
I can hardly remember what are the few greatest event in 2014.. as if 2014 was just a dream and made no impact to my life hahas.
SOOOOOOOOOOO~ in 2015 I hope to make a difference!
I have make my 1st step and have to wait for news lah~ I REALLY REALLY REALLY hope to be given that opportunity to make a change to my current life. & yup! It's that major =P
I am ending my 2014 vomitting and laosai-ing and MC-ed for 2 days! So i guess all the bad luck leftover in me got used up already :D
2015 is such a big deal to me that I cant wait for 2014 to end
Ayden is starting school, and I cant wait to see his changes :)
We are a year nearer to collection of keys and i SERIOUSLY cant wait for it to happen. We have been waiting for the day where we can sit around in the living room, watching television, cook and not squeeze inside one room with everything :(
Pig has been more stabilize in his new job and I cant wait to see him doing better and of cos (higher pay lah)
Tuesday, December 2, 2014
DECEMBER!!
Can't believe it's DECEMBERRRRRRRRRRRR
& 2015 is coming in less than a month time.. talking about scary~
Nothing is scarier than how time flies HAHAHA
Nope, I am not going to set target or to have a summary of my life like what I always used to do since I was in Secondary School hahas.
Because my target generally sums up to 1 word - Happy.
I just want to be happy lor~ very shallow...
But don't be shock how hard it is to achieve it, however i believe that the key point to stay happy is to be positive and also easily contented.. like what i have been saying last time lah~
I am pretty happy when i get to end work early and reach home on time..
I am pretty happy when i got my family day on sunday and bring Ayden out for some fun..
I am quite happy when i get to have my ice cream once in a while :D
I am also very happy when pig drive me to work everyday and occasionally pick me up from work
I also very happy when I get to contact my friends and to know that all of us are leading great life even though we hardly meet <3
That's pretty much sums up my life HAHAHAHA
I am also very happy because pig agreed that we can go to TAIWAN AGAIN!!!
That's going to be the 3rd time MUHAHA
& what more can you ask for when you happen to find another silly one who dont mind going to the same place again and again with you, and also crazily fall in love with it!
I am going to retire and migrate to taiwan when i am old.. HAHAHA
Okay.. half way doing report. BYEEEE
& 2015 is coming in less than a month time.. talking about scary~
Nothing is scarier than how time flies HAHAHA
Nope, I am not going to set target or to have a summary of my life like what I always used to do since I was in Secondary School hahas.
Because my target generally sums up to 1 word - Happy.
I just want to be happy lor~ very shallow...
But don't be shock how hard it is to achieve it, however i believe that the key point to stay happy is to be positive and also easily contented.. like what i have been saying last time lah~
I am pretty happy when i get to end work early and reach home on time..
I am pretty happy when i got my family day on sunday and bring Ayden out for some fun..
I am quite happy when i get to have my ice cream once in a while :D
I am also very happy when pig drive me to work everyday and occasionally pick me up from work
I also very happy when I get to contact my friends and to know that all of us are leading great life even though we hardly meet <3
That's pretty much sums up my life HAHAHAHA
I am also very happy because pig agreed that we can go to TAIWAN AGAIN!!!
That's going to be the 3rd time MUHAHA
& what more can you ask for when you happen to find another silly one who dont mind going to the same place again and again with you, and also crazily fall in love with it!
I am going to retire and migrate to taiwan when i am old.. HAHAHA
Okay.. half way doing report. BYEEEE
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