31 DECEMBER 2014

2014 is coming to an end!!!
Cant.Believe.ITTTTTT

Anyway~ I hope 2014 was a good year.. but to my context~ I dont think so..
It has been quite a rough year for me :(

Especially pertaining my work and financially wise (I believe it's interconnected)
I can hardly remember what are the few greatest event in 2014.. as if 2014 was just a dream and made no impact to my life hahas.

SOOOOOOOOOOO~ in 2015 I hope to make a difference!

I have make my 1st step and have to wait for news lah~ I REALLY REALLY REALLY hope to be given that opportunity to make a change to my current life. & yup! It's that major =P

I am ending my 2014 vomitting and laosai-ing and MC-ed for 2 days! So i guess all the bad luck leftover in me got used up already :D
2015 is such a big deal to me that I cant wait for 2014 to end

Ayden is starting school, and I cant wait to see his changes :)
We are a year nearer to collection of keys and i SERIOUSLY cant wait for it to happen. We have been waiting for the day where we can sit around in the living room, watching television, cook and not squeeze inside one room with everything :(
Pig has been more stabilize in his new job and I cant wait to see him doing better and of cos (higher pay lah)

DECEMBER!!

Can't believe it's DECEMBERRRRRRRRRRRR
& 2015 is coming in less than a month time.. talking about scary~
Nothing is scarier than how time flies HAHAHA

Nope, I am not going to set target or to have a summary of my life like what I always used to do since I was in Secondary School hahas.

Because my target generally sums up to 1 word - Happy.

I just want to be happy lor~ very shallow...
But don't be shock how hard it is to achieve it, however i believe that the key point to stay happy is to be positive and also easily contented.. like what i have been saying last time lah~

I am pretty happy when i get to end work early and reach home on time..
I am pretty happy when i got my family day on sunday and bring Ayden out for some fun..
I am quite happy when i get to have my ice cream once in a while :D
I am also very happy when pig drive me to work everyday and occasionally pick me up from work
I also very happy when I get to contact my friends and to know that all of us are leading great life even though we hardly meet <3

That's pretty much sums up my life HAHAHAHA

I am also very happy because pig agreed that we can go to TAIWAN AGAIN!!!
That's going to be the 3rd time MUHAHA
& what more can you ask for when you happen to find another silly one who dont mind going to the same place again and again with you, and also crazily fall in love with it!
I am going to retire and migrate to taiwan when i am old.. HAHAHA

Okay.. half way doing report. BYEEEE

Everyday when I am walking out of the office, feeling so damn happy that the day has finally comes to an end. I will start pondering about my motivation for work.

I started working as part time since I finished my O level, I think thats consider young also? My childhood dream was to be a Doctor, then to a DJ followed by just a professional officr lady HAHA.

Anyway~~ so whats the motivation of all? 

Sadly to say.. I work for the sake of working. Just for that amount of money which will ka ching to my bank every month end. I live my life looking forward to friday and dreading the arrival of monday.

I drag my feet every morning and look foward to lunchtime den to end of the day.

I know I sound damn loser haha. Like someone who has no backbone and no aim. But im being frank and daring enough to admit it.

Since my very last job.. I have been constantly reminding myself that I have to get a job that motivate me. But sometime reality sucks big time.. no body is going to hire with no relevant experience and qualification. So after months of searching.. I ended up in a job somewhat similar and continue the dreadly routine of meaningless life.

Everyone is asking and looking for different thing.

Some can be motivated by money. Higher pay higher allowance better benefits.

Some are motivated by rank. Better named position, higher positionss

some are motivated by achievement.  How many sales they closed. How many ppl you hired and many dataentry u keyed haha

I sincerely think im.weird

Cos im looking for self satisfaction

From 1.7k I hopped to 2k.

I still dragging myself to work.

From normal admin I hopped to hr. 

I still counting down to weekend.

I can key hundreds of dataentry.

I just want my week to end asap hahaha

I got friends who work REALLY meaningful stuff. Like social worker and case manager who really HELPING people. I super envy.

Ok I dunno what im talking about.

But please dont judge me just because I keep changing job. Lol.

I admire ppl who can stay in a position for years and years. There must be something that drive them. Whether its thr pay or the ppl or the career ladder. I will also.feel.frustrated that im out of thr norm. But pls dont judge me.

I am just on my way to look for somethjng I really want.. and somehow and another.. I get lost. :(

Give me time. I hope I can find something I really give my heart and soul HAHA I HOPE

Soaked Oat - Try 1

My breakfast today is... soaked oat in Chocolate Milk..

Tasted................ not very appealing.............

The oats are now soft but it make the milk taste like oats! and there is this powder-ish feel.

Not a very nice breakfast to eat but after a few mouth.. I am already quite full!

Shall try harder next time!!

*look for more receipes*

生活小插曲-1

wanted to write in chinese, but haiya too lazy hahahas.

Anyway, bought Ayden to one of the indoor playgound at Vivocity.

Pig and me always make a point to arrange something fun for him when we are having family day! I thought he will be against this idea, but surprising, that's  what he thinks too!

There are 1 incident that keep me thinking..

There was a machine which you can insert the balls and it will be transport to the 2nd level, where all the guns are. The balls are all over the floor.

My silly boy spent quite sometime there picking up balls and put into the machine, while other bigger kids happily playing with the gun upstair.

My very first thinking is.. my boy is so silly to help other ppl pick up balls! So i tried to pull him away from that area, but he refused and started to cry so i just let him be.

After a few moments, there are more kids at the particular area.. and to my surprise, more kids start to join Ayden in picking up and inserting the balls to be transported.

They are all sooooo happy, together with the kids at the 2nd floor because they get to play the gun as balls are being transported.

okay short story over.

What did you learn from the kids here? haha

I think we, being adult, we always except something when we do thing.. some result some rewards some praises..

But to small kids, they are just doing things that make them happy! They don't care who will benefits or whether they are at the loss side. They are just doing things they like and they are happy! That's all matter.

They are all innocent angels which we gradually lose it when we grow up.. and become humans who are more 现实.

Children are so pure and there are always things to learn from them :)

ok till next time!

singapore transportation

Seriously,  I cant explain how annoyed I am with our transportation recently. I used to agree that our mrt are one of the best mode to bring us from 1 plsce to another..

But I beg to differ now.

Efficiency.

Govt is coming out with many routes and many station at many (ulu) places.
Does it help???

I think most ppl dont mind taking a bus to the nearest mrt station. We dont need a mrt station just before our doorstep. For my case.. I need efficiency!

Which is the time spent on traveling.

It is super annoying when the mrt are traveling at a speed whereby you can count how many trees passed by! By right I could reach my deatination within 15 mins. But now I need 25 mins!! Thats pretty bad!  So yupp.. efficiency.


Personal space

We dont need a seat. Just give me my space.

I got super traumatised when I used to take mrt from raffles place station. We are basically sticking to each other. YUCKS!!!

Metro train in taiwan is not empty.. sometime we dont get to sit but its a pleasure to take their train because it will.never get so crowded that you can smell the shampoo of the person infront of you!

Even the seats.. pls admit that singapoream is not lile japanese. The size of the seats is far too small for some and the arms of the person is like sticking to mine disgust me too!!

workLIFE balance

One thing i hate about working is losing the life balance that everyone deserved.

Some people see working until wee hours as an achievement which i can never ever understand. Working is part of our life, for a sense of satisfaction and also to earn a living so that we can have the life we want. But we don't for work..

There is only 7 days a week and we spend 5 days at work.

There are only 24 hours a day and we spend almost half of it at work or preparing for work, 8 hrs (barely minimum) of sleep and only left pathetically, 4 hrs for our own.

I am sorry if you see me a lazy bum who wants to go home early and did not strive and shine at workplace.. I value the moments when i can wake my son up from his nap and give him the first hug of the day.. I value the moments when i can slack on bed with my son playing beside me and do nothing with my husband. I value the each and every dinner i have with them. While some workaholics are facing the computers faraway from home, in the office.

No, i don't mean I dont care about my work. I do stay back as and when needed and required.  But i dont want it to be a on daily basis. In order to go home on time.. i make sure that my hours and minutes at work was well spent.. i rarely chit chat with my colleagues during work.. i dont laugh and walk ard and stretch my ear to every gossip they are discussing. 

It's hard to have a boss that share the same value as you. I hope my next job will! ohh~ i just spend 10 min typing this HAHAHHA 

BUAIX!

Being a MUM

I just read a article posted by a mummy who lost her 10 month old son just recently after falling sick for 1 week. The child was having persistent fever and all doctors didnt realised how severe it is and they delayed the medical attention required.

Cant believe i teared just by reading it!

I think being mum means you will have a soft spot for everything related to kids. lol

Anyway it's certain that life will be completely different if Ayden doesnt exist & i thought it will be very bad.
But nono~ If i were to make a choice again.. i will stick to my current ones.

Many say that pig and I are too young to be parent, especially pig' parent.
But we proof them WRONG. Yes, we are young and didnt hold a good job before that. But having him make us realised that we have the responsibility to provide him a better life, so we worked hard and we try our best to give him the best. (gosh his milk powder is one of the most expensive one *cry)

They think we will be a bad parent who cant handle him. But he turns out to be such a sweetie that are well loved by everyone. He is 2 years old now.. and I am quite proud of him! He's generally kind and courtesy to everyone. That's what I always wanted to teach him, even though he is not a fast learner but i think it's okay! He will catch up someday.

Nothing is worst than your child falling sick. I admit that I am not the best employee at work and i never are. I will take leave when he is very sick.. (not flu lah).. and i will try to finish my work ASAP to go home to spend some time with him.

I will always remember the feeling when he was hospitalized when he was 4 months old. Every few hours, he will have to clear his nasal which is very uncomfortable. He will cry so hard that we can hear him 1 corridor away and will not quiet down under me or my aunt carry him. gosh heartbreaking.

I am very fortunate to have my aunt who is so experienced with kids and she will always give us the best suggestion and advise. She love Ayden as much as we do and so yupp we are really lucky to have her to tell us what to look out for and to take note and what to do whenever there is something unusual.  <3

Okays abrupt BYE!

Difference in Married/ Dating Couples

I think i am one of my friends who get married first.. not very proud of that but well.. It's somewhere everyone will get to, just that i am just a few years ahead of them :)

Dating and Married are a completely different world!!

It really takes month or even years to get use to it especially for my case when everything change and settled at a very drastic speed. hahas

Activities

I think one of the most drastic change is the activity that we engage. Last time almost everytime we meet was to watch movies, eat brunch, shopping, eat dinner, shopping and say goodbye~

But this cant be the case if you are married, most of the time your activity will be just staying at home and do nothing. If you have a kid, that's going to be worst. HAHA. We stayed at home for every weekend and holiday until Ayden is reaching 1 plus year old. Say bye to freedom~~

Quarreling

Guys sucks! hahahaas. when you are dating.. quarrel means a big deal! He might drop whatever he was doing and rush down to your doorstep to say sorry. Or he will try all means to pacify you and make you laugh.

After married.. quarrel is an everyday thing hahaha! from who shall make the milk, throw diapers, what time to sleep to everything we do. There is no way he will make the effort as much as he did, most probably he will just keep quiet and go to sleep, hoping everything will back to normal next morning.

I used to get really upset over this change, but trust me. You will get used to it because it is really pointless to quarrel over little things and make both of you unhappy everyday. Most importantly, THERE WILL BE NO CONCLUSION! So now i will just nag and nag and nag and forget about it HAHA

Money Does Matter

He will start asking you to share the burden! This does not apply if you are married to a rich guy, of course!

But in my case, we share the financial burden and need to watch our spending habit closely. I can easily spend $100 dollar on shopping or eating last time, but now... he will nag nag nag and watch how many bags you have and how many new clothes you wear for work everyday. STRESS AH!

hahahhah!

Family

Now, you have become the 'daughter-in-law' and 'son-in-law' of somebody. Thats mean more thing to do lah! Compromise, compromise, compromise, compromise is the only thing you can do. Regardless whether you can get along anot. That's the thing that you always have to do. To me.. thats sucks HAHAHA

Any other things like being filial and nice so that no people will bad-mouth you doesnt applied to me. COS I DONT GIVE A HECK! :D Peace out~ HAHAHA

In conclusion, married life is very different lah! But I am glad that we are now who we are and we are constantly growing ( in size also) even though we settled down early!

I cant wait to see more of my friend getting married and have kids!

IN LAWS

It has been 2 years since i first call them Mum & Dad.
From the surface, many thought that I am fine with them etc, but deep down it's always a big NO! haha

I am still kind :D because i really really hope that they stay healthy FOREVER & FOREVER. The reason behind it is.......so that we can live separately >.<

You know what's wrong with in law? Why is there so many peoples facing issues with their in-laws?

Now i finally know.. it's the difference in perspective.

Being an in-law, you expect your daughter in law to be nice to your son and treat him like a king and you are the maid mother of their grandson. & being a daughter in law, you should be respecting them cos they are your 长辈 and listen to whatever they say and do whatever we say.

But seriously, as a daughter of my parent.. what's the reason for me to treat you better than my parent? They are the one whom i grown up with for 20+ years, they are the one who give birth to me, the one who are worry for me.

I can never forgot the day i give birth to Ayden, my family are the one who stand right at my bedside asking how am i (of cos looking at baby also).. and who is the one who is forever sticking to the cot =.=

Okay, back to in law side.. people will say thing like.. you are a 坏媳妇 because 1. you dont let your husband go meet their parent 2. you dont let your son meet their grandparent 3. you are not filial to them 4. you never take care of them

1st thing 1st, husbands have leg and ezlink card, if he want to meet you.. he could have gone back. If i can go back to look for my parent myself, why cant guys do that? I dont understand it when guys always insisted that the whole family must go back to visit his parent.

2nd thing, in my case.. i have to say they 活该 and this is what they should face la. Why should i being unhappy just to make ppl happy?
Sorry that's not me lah.

3rd. I am sorry but i am not fillial to my parent too. period. yet

4th. take care what sia?

It is really irritating when people start saying me this and that. HELLO MY PROBLEM OR YOUR PROBLEM? SUPER PISSED.

Dont ever tell me that i should do that and shouldnt do that because I AM MARRIED. yesyes, i am married BUT I AM NOT MARRIED TO BE A MAID, to be someone i am never was..

okay~ PEACE. :D

Currently, i still meet them and try to be happy that i get to eat free good food and sometime Ayden get some free stupid present like bears and toy hammer =.= kind of thing.

insert let it go melody~ THE COLD NEVER BOTHER ME ANYWAY~ *FLIP HAIR*

I didnt know people are still reading my blog!

*WAVES TO AIAI*

HAHAHAH!

Anyway @ 24years old, i learnt alot alot more about life and all.

I used to have many many many many friends! (Not Haolian ok!)
From poly cliques to jc clique to pri sch cliques to internship cliques and whatsoever.

But as time goes... you will know who are the keepers and who are those that will disappear slowly.

I am super glad that i managed to keep 2 of my pri sch (thats like 18 years ago!) a few of poly friends, a few of JC friends and a bunch of sec sch friends.  HAHA

They are always the people who will pop out when and ever you need help for advise, or just some chit chatting. We are all busy with our work and life schedules and somehow impossible to keep in contact every single day and meeting out every single week.. but you know they are just THERE!

I lost a few friends (Not died lah!) but it's okay~ 

SO THANK YOU MY FRIENDS ESP THOSE WHO WENT THOUGH UPS AND DOWN! 

@ 24 YEAR OLD

It's my 24 year old birthday in 1 day time!
It's not as happening as maybe.. 5/6 years ago? Where I have numerous celebration with different cliques of friends and I think I used to blow off at least 3 or 4 cakes for birthday!

It's great memories! All these make me feel like at least my life was well spent HAHA

But these recent years, thing slowly change and I will celebrate mostly with my family :)

OKAY BACK TO MAIN POINT!

24 year old~ I think I am consider an ADULT now HAHA (even though I don't feel I am)
My biggest achievement as compared to my other peers is that I have a darling son and is already married. Not the best thing that can happen to me, but I have to say that I am quite happy with my current status :) Nothing beats going back home after a long day work and you see that tiny human grinning at you while running towards you. That's like the best thing ever & you will suddenly realised that's the reason for working.

Career wise~ not as smooth lah! hahha~ but I am very glad & proud that pig managed to get hold of a promotion! Not bad at all~ I am quite proud of him hahas. I hope his pay raise will make me really proud too! =P

I used to feel really horrible if he manage to do something well such as having business trips and pay raise. But after these years, I realised I wont anymore! I think I really grow old liao.

Okay~ my wish is to go for further studies & have a job I love!
However, most importantly is my family remain happy and healthy as always! <3

It's time to think

I realised i always go back to blogging whenever i just started a new job.
So when i looked back, I will know when I had changed job.

Anyway leaving Juronghealth was quite a huge steps i took.
I simply wont left if the new AA hasnt join us, simply because i quite enjoy working there as i was really really hectic and kind of interesting because everyday i get to learn new things and face new challenges. Tell me where can i find something like that.

But the bad and the worst thing should be I am under someone who dont match with my working style. It was really hard! She was super picky, on every tiniest details and she got a very very bad habit of scolding/ commenting bad thing infront of other peoples. She wont care and dont care.

I think it get better when we shifted office and I get to sit further from her. Oh ya, did I mention that she love love love to pack my drawers. I somehow think it's ridiculous! She dont respect privacy isnt it? Even though it's workdesk but it's my desk!! I am completely fine with her packing my in tray or folders but.. drawers?

Anyway, i was saying.. i left and really start thinking what i want to be next time, because at 24 age like this, working shouldnt just for salary. It will bring me nowhere and I am aware of that.

I always thought i LOVE HR! But then, i realised that i cant imagine myself being in my Executive place or even my AD place, even though i dare to say they draw a super high salary per month la. I know i will still be dragging myself to work EVERY SINGLE DAY.

I checked out alot alot of courses related to HR but i just cant get myself to register and i realised it's because i am scared that it's not what i want and what i like. So i hold on.

I have been searching for a career that i love and i can find meaning in it.

I narrowed down to teaching.
& I got myself a place in sponsorship in Early Childhood.
& I tried applying for NIE.

At the same time, i manage to know what Social Work is.
I researched and asked my friend who is really working as a Social Worker. I realised i like it! But knowing my character, i am not going to just decide like that.

I continue to research and seeing all the jobscope pertaining to the job. I am quite firm that that's what i want. A job that is meaningful.

I dont know whether i will be picking it up afterall, it's not only about me.
I have a family to support, of cos with the help of roose.

But still, it's not so easy to handle part time studies and full time work and a kid.

I am still considering and weighing the different aspect but i really hope someday i can finally know what i want.

Ayden @ 22 months

I seriously cannot believe that Ayden is turning 24 months in less than 2 months time!

How could time passed so evil-ly fast! Anyway, he is a really slow learner. He learn to crawl late, walk also late, now soeech is even later. His crawling process was kinda short! he hardly crawled and he suddenly want to walk =.= I got abit worried because at 20 months, he hardly open his mouth except some pingu language =.=

Luckily these few days he finally start blahing some words which surprised us! He randomly sang HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO YOU and TWINKLE TWINKLE LITTLE STAR with melody OMG!!

Its so great to know that my singing to him over the months has some minimun impact hehe!
 He also learnt some words like bye~ hello~ pussycat~ meaow~ woof~ moo~ oink~ =.= all animal sound =.= and oh! THANK YOU AND OPEN!

okay lah, better than nothing. Still super happy and relived that he can talk lah hahah

I also tried to bring him out ALONE on saturday for some fun!
I was really convinced by xiaxue that baby should have their FUN TIME rather than going shopping with us or eat dinner watching tv =.=

By the way, ya i brought him to playground for 2 conseq weekend! thats a very good progress for me! Hopefully i can bring him go somewhere further yo!

I just read an article in Real Singapore,I cant be a Singaporean anymore~ Gosh~ it feel just like me HAHAH I hope i wont get caught for saying that =p I have so much respect for Lee Kuan Yew because of the NE promoted by sec school. I admire all the policy they made, including HDB and CPF, alot. I used to explain to my parent the rationale behind the govt policy when they complained. But now after i stop into the society, facing the real issues, i finally know it's not a bed of flower to behin with. I hate taking public transportation now, it's far too squeezy. There are so many time i feel foreign sitting in the MRT cos i am the only Singapore-look-alike onboard, the rest are obviously FT. I cant stop complaining about the education system, it's too expensive for a student from a average family. I ended up with 4k of debt just after graduation and find it hard to proceed to continue my studies. It's even more ridiculous when i saw news that our mp actually says that we dont have to get a degree to live well, gooness me, what was he talking about. I am a local poly grad and my starting pay was 1.6k. after working for years, i barely hit 2k. How to survive? My dream is to move to taiwan!! I can go dinner at Shilin NM everynight, go other areas if taiwan when on holiday! :)

Finally back to blogging again since Oct, when im still with Juronghealth~ I cant deny that i like that job very much, it's busy and busy and busy HAHAH So time normally passed very very fast. But well, i guess its time to move on not become i dont like it anymore, but because i cant stanf it anymore. I hate bias boss and especially hate it when i see colleagues boot licking ppl. I was being put down by my RO in many many ways, just because i dont do overtime with her. RIDICULOUS.