Everyday when I am walking out of the office, feeling so damn happy that the day has finally comes to an end. I will start pondering about my motivation for work.

I started working as part time since I finished my O level, I think thats consider young also? My childhood dream was to be a Doctor, then to a DJ followed by just a professional officr lady HAHA.

Anyway~~ so whats the motivation of all? 

Sadly to say.. I work for the sake of working. Just for that amount of money which will ka ching to my bank every month end. I live my life looking forward to friday and dreading the arrival of monday.

I drag my feet every morning and look foward to lunchtime den to end of the day.

I know I sound damn loser haha. Like someone who has no backbone and no aim. But im being frank and daring enough to admit it.

Since my very last job.. I have been constantly reminding myself that I have to get a job that motivate me. But sometime reality sucks big time.. no body is going to hire with no relevant experience and qualification. So after months of searching.. I ended up in a job somewhat similar and continue the dreadly routine of meaningless life.

Everyone is asking and looking for different thing.

Some can be motivated by money. Higher pay higher allowance better benefits.

Some are motivated by rank. Better named position, higher positionss

some are motivated by achievement.  How many sales they closed. How many ppl you hired and many dataentry u keyed haha

I sincerely think im.weird

Cos im looking for self satisfaction

From 1.7k I hopped to 2k.

I still dragging myself to work.

From normal admin I hopped to hr. 

I still counting down to weekend.

I can key hundreds of dataentry.

I just want my week to end asap hahaha

I got friends who work REALLY meaningful stuff. Like social worker and case manager who really HELPING people. I super envy.

Ok I dunno what im talking about.

But please dont judge me just because I keep changing job. Lol.

I admire ppl who can stay in a position for years and years. There must be something that drive them. Whether its thr pay or the ppl or the career ladder. I will also.feel.frustrated that im out of thr norm. But pls dont judge me.

I am just on my way to look for somethjng I really want.. and somehow and another.. I get lost. :(

Give me time. I hope I can find something I really give my heart and soul HAHA I HOPE